Poems

IV.

Staring at the sky,
hoping to touch the clouds.
Jealousy strikes,
from the depths of the soul.
Yearn for freedom.
Freedom of it all.
But, where did my wings go?
Why have you to set them on fire?
Shadows buried in the core of anger,
those ashes fly away.
It was all just wishful thinking,
you broke me then, and you break me now.
Dreams should not lead the way,
Why do they veil the road in obscurity?
Hope has been laid waste.
For when dreams ruin you,
you realize that nothing was never true.

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III.

Secrets of the mind
hide faces that were left behind
burning desperate wishes of the heart
that were hers in the start
highlighting all those scars
for the mere reason of forgetting the stars

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II.

Ominous smile on his face;

In his hand, a little lace.

Pull the string and tear it asunder.

Endless stroms, tormented slumber.

Chained mind, cage of ice.

...desolated lies, would suffice.

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I.
Remember the rage,

of this endless stage.

Oblivious image of love,

flies away like the forgotten dove.

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Grandpa

I was thinking about you last night;

Wondering how’d it feel that you hold me tight.

I was thinking of how much I miss you;

Of how eager I am to meet you.

I was thinking of how much I regret

That none of your kisses I could get.

I was thinking of how I never heard your voice;

I really never had much of a choice.

I was thinking that I am afraid.

Oh, grandpa! I need your aid.

I was wondering if you feel proud.

Oh, I wish to cry so loud!

I was thinking that you left too soon...

Perhaps in Heaven they needed a boon.

I was wondering about your smile;

The thought has been kept for a while.

I was thinking that even though I never met you

I know I love you.

You’ll always be in my heart,

Just like when my life was about to start.

This poem I wrote one night that I was thinking about my grandfather. I've always regreted not being able to meet him... He died a month before I was born... how ironic. My cousins and my brother were so lucky to meet him. If I had just been born earlier, maybe he would have held me in his arms... at least once... I always think of how different my life and my family would be if he was still around.

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All I Want

Old, bad memories... I just can't forget,

And all of it... I deeply regret.

All I want is to be free;

For this is far too much for me.

Towards me, I only feel contempt;

...of a loving family I once dreamt.

All I want is to get away;

Away from all the crap that happens every day.

I feel so painfully alone...

I'm tired of crying on my own.

All I want is this to stop;

The bad memories I want to block.

I'm tired of hoping in vain;

Hoping that they'll change... Oh, boy. Why aren't I insane.

All I want is to be able to rest;

I'm sick and tired of being depressed.

I forgot what forgiveness is,

And I’m starting to think that ignorance is bliss.

All I want is this to come to an end,

Otherwise my heart won't be able to mend.

This poem I wrote about two months ago. I was quite frustrated about so many things going on at the same time.. I was depressed because of bad things going on all the blasted time... But fortunatly things seem to be getting better... in a very slow way.

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Friends

If your face lacks of smiles,

I’ll recognize it, even in distant miles.

If your face is wet with tears,

I’ll know there’s something you fear.

No need to be afraid

I’m always here to grant you my aid.

Easy, my friend, you won’t fall in the lands of despair;

I’m here to show you how much I care.

Do not worry, you will not fall.

I’m your supporting pillar, after all.

Remember that you’re never alone.

I’m your best friend; the one you’ve always known.

For Sol.

This is a poem I wrote when thinking of my best friend. She was in a bad situation at that time, so I dedicated this to her just to put a smile on her face. She did actually love this poem I did. She knew she is never alone, because she has me. And she will always have me.

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Loneliness

Loneliness is such a curious feeling

It makes everything seem as it has no meaning

How can I not be afraid?

If life seems to fade…

My heart away has been blown

And my voice has a different tone

I am suddenly so cold

And it seems I am getting old…

I don’t know if I can bear the pain…

All these tears I can no longer contain.

I want to stop feeling alone…

I don’t want my heart turning into stone.

I feel alone too sometimes... I feel as if life has absolutely no meaning...
But then, I remember of how blessed I am. I have people who care for me; I have those who love me for who I am, and that will always be there for me.
Even if it seems so, none of us is alone. There's always someone that will pay us some company in good and bad moments.

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Once Upon a Time

There was once a little girl whose life wasn’t so easy. The poor thing had to deal with a lot of bad things every single day. Her disease,yells, hits, fights, argues, being blamed for doing nothing, discrimination, mistreatments, tears, silence, loneliness, stress. All these the poor little girl suffered. Many times suicide came to her mind, yet she always found something that always kept the thought away. Either playing video games or writing; day dreaming perhaps. It all made her feel that she was actually good for something. Despite of what her mother said, despite of this feeling less creature that she dared to call “mom” thought of her. “You’re a mistake, you will never succed in life” She would always tell her , after hitting her with whatever was at hand. This made the little girl grow cold, mean, violent, tough, and practically emotionless. This always kept her alone; for no one wanted to be around someone like her.

She never really had a friend, up until she realized that she should not care about what her mother told her. That she should make her own way and accept the fact that her “mother” won’t ever change. It was then, when I started to become more human. I actually got many friends, once they knew who I really am.

I, now, don’t care about my … about that woman who gave birth to me. I practically have no family, since I don’t really belong to it. I’ve never been welcomed there..

But, I do have a family, my friends. God, I love them. I will always be there for them because they made me realize things; they taught me a valuable lesson; they made me more human; they make me want to show my true self; they taught me how to trust others…

Guys, I am forever in your debts.

Thank you.

Yes, this is the story of my life, which, sadly, happens to most of us. I know how it feels to get hit, I know how it feels to be alone, I know how it feels to be helpless... But, there's always something in life that is worth living for,
in my case, my friends. Do not give up. Life is precious. It has it's ups and downs, but what doesn't kill us makes us stronger!

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Angel

I beg of you, save me, take me away,
I can’t bear to face things this way.

Set me free, break distress’ chain,
Fly high… free me of pain.

How can I make you understand how I feel?
My wounded heart just won’t heal.

Take me to the divine Empire,
The Great Heavens I want to admire.

Save me from this undying contempt;
Take me to the world of which I once dreamt.

Save me, save me with your wings..

Just let me say one last goodbye,
Let me see if I can regain my will to survive….

..I guess..I just need a break..

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It's Over

I remember the promises that you once said
You gave your word, and look, it’s all shred.

Your broken promises caused this unbearable pain,
Which is now followed by an unstoppable disdain.

How could’ve you done this to me?
Don’t you remember how we swore that together we’d always be?

Now I can’t help but being drowned by bitter tears,
That seem to be calling in all my fears.

Everything is now so lethally silent;
And I wish nothing but to be violent.

Since your eyes look on me selflessly,
Grief hunts me restlessly.

I would like to know the reason behind all this,
The knowledge would certainly put my heart at ease.

But it seems you don’t care enough to make me feel alright;
Since you did nothing but to take me out of your sight.

Don’t you at least feel a little bit of regret?
So all you did was just forget?...

I can’t live with or without you, truth be told;
Deep within me, my love for you is still hold.

My naïve and innocent heart still loves you,
While my swift, cunning mind wants to forget you.

Yet I have no choice but the road to acceptance;
I just simply have to forget of your existence.

I was happy... Then, everything was torn apart infront of me. There's nothing I could do about it.. I wish there had been something to do...
It's funny how the person you love the most, the one person that you KNOW won't disappoint you, won't hurt you, will do it. It's funny how life brings true happiness to you, and then takes it away in an eye-blink..
Life isn't fair. It never was, it never will be.
I like to believe that things happen for a reason; I just couldn't see the reason this time...

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Answer My Prayer

Every night
I would kneel down, holding my hands tight.

And I would speak to you
with a tone of endless rue.

I never asked for something magnificent,
what I asked was small, but significant.

I would always ask you one simple thing: "mercy,
please, mercy. Provide this to me before I lose my sanity".

For years I suffered of her violence
For years I prayed and got nothing but silence.

Finally, one day I realized that they were all lies,
that you were a lie.

I realized that you're nothing but an idle fantasy
created by those who wanted to take advantage of many

who wanted to believe.
But I will no longer be decieved.

So I now know why you never answered my prayer,
you simply were never there.

This poem was inspired in the song 'Cries in Vain' by Bullet for My Valentine, and also on a personal experience.

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Act of Vengeance

I will find you

and I will haunt you.

Now that I have been provided with the means

I will show you what it feels

To be helpless;

To be lost in the midst of darkness.

I now command the shadows in your darkest dreams,

I am the one who makes you scream.

The black feathers you see in your greatest nightmares belong to his wings;

To him, the darkest of the kings

To him, my powerful sire

To him, the most dangerous vampire.

I can hear your soul begging for mercy;
      Let it not worry, this will end briefly.

I can see how fear colors your eyes,

      Just the way mine colored with your lies.

I can taste the vicious sweetness of your blood;

      I just love what I get with a simple nod.

I can smell despair in your deepest thoughts,

      Trust me, that was exactly what I sought.

I can feel how your body gets colder;

      How I get stronger.

You are guilty of my ending this way.

You knew that I would make you pay.

It was only fair

Because when it comes to betrayal, my forgiveness is rare.

Now say your last goodbye,

For it is time to die.

While he agonized, I looked into his eyes

And heard the melody of his cries

Of succor, that got lost in the silence of the night,

For help would not arrive. Not tonight.

When I saw his dead body lying motionless,

I simply knew he deserved nothing less.

I now stand proudly, knowing that I am justice;

that I am vengeance.

For blood,

Can only be repaid in blood.

This was a request from a friend. He asked me to write a poem with the theme of vampire's powers. I think it turned out quite well, he enjoyed it as much as I did.